Friday, June 06, 2008

Mind is always at a bother

I have seen it, felt it, and embraced it. Since I was a kid, my mind has felt a bother right through my life. Sometimes I have wondered if the bother was the one keeping me focussed in day-to-day activities. It might be.

When I was a young boy, I aspired to be an Engineer. After becoming an Engineering student, I was at constant bother about the job I am going to get. To say the least I started learning about competitive exams (like GATE/GRE/TOEFL/CAT/GMAT) and their related books (like CSRs/puzzles/Language/Quantitative/Qualitative tests/questions), right in the first week of my college life. To the extent I was craze on getting a job, I just easily said, no to PG courses to my father. I wrote GATE, but that was pretty much namesake.

After I got the job, I wanted to be something more always. I was never satisfied with the way at work, constantly wanted to improve. This bother is very obsessive, it makes you spend hours/days/nights just deciding where I should be in the next two months/half year/year/,... etc.,

Some might feel, that this is very taxing and can take a major toll on everyday life, but I feel it has strengthened be whenever I was down. The resilience in the bother made me surpass expectations from most people. But the bother still remains. May be it is helping me on improving myself dearly. Really, sometimes I enjoy the bother, but sometimes I too tend to become unstable because of it. Always the stability returns, but sometimes I am not myself. And that too bothers me.

I am not sure if it is a gift, but as they say Idle mind is Devil's workshop, all I pray and want is to have a healthy relationship with this bother and let it continue to guide me on the life journey. May be it is God who has pre-determined this to happen inside me, or is it just my faith which beckons this explanation.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

IPL is Over ('N Out)

Finally the IPL fever is subsiding. It was pretty exciting to see the buzz created by IPL. To see the stars trying to perform upto their reputations. The upcoming stars performing beyond anybody's guess. And certainly a tight-crunch situational final.

It would have been very disappointing if somebody who was very inconsistent such as the Chennai Super Kings or the Punjab to have gotten the Cup. It was certainly commendable the way Rajastan Royals lifted the cup.

The match was not evenly poised any point of the time, as we knew that the CSK were around 25 runs short in their innings. But if they had held on to the tough chances which came their way, they would have certainly be the winners. But Shane Warne's boys were clinical in their approach and coasted home with adequate fuss.

The fact I had expected good match up whenever somebody played the other meant constant viewership. Eventhough ICL had a similar number of matches everyday, it did not stir up the excitement as there was not much expectation from the players involved.

Hence, we have to definitely give Kudos to the IPL tournament, the way it dramatized and pulled down TRPs of actual SOAPs/Dramas/Movies/Cinemas etc., and has ruled this holiday season.

Anyway, I will definitely be looking for some other kind of time-pass as IPL has created me a little bit of luxury time as it has left. Hope you also find a similar habit.